Wednesday, November 21, 2007
When the world seems like its closing in on you and things just don't seem to be working out quite like you'd expected them to. When all of the things in life that at one time seemed so desirable either now ring hollow or are simply out of your reach. These are but a few of the harsh realities of your life that you've decided to supress because they're too depressing to think about. Am I talking to you? Are you the type that will spend they're whole life suffering in silence occasionaly acting out in wierd ways because of your supressed feelings? yes/no? or are you the type who at some point says " I just don't care about the stuff I thought I did anymore,and If I had an alternative to the life I'm leading I'd definitly take a serious look at it." If you are the former then I hope that you adjust well to the medication they put you on. If you're the latter...then we should talk. I own a small farm in the Ozarks and I have been thinking of trying to help some people to escape they're crappy lives. Am I talking about some wierd commune? NO, I'm talking about people finding some sanity in their lives. You bring what you have to work with and I'll try to help you do the rest. This won't work for everybody. You have to be willing to work for yourself and be self motivated. You would have to be resourseful and have ingenuity. You would have to value your freedom and independence above all things and be willing to co-operate with other like minded people. It sounds pretty far fetched I know, you may even think it sounds impossible. I'm not talking about "utopia" we're human beings and so we're gonna screw up...thats okay, whats important is that we learn and move on. The definition of insanity is to repeat behaviors expecting a diffrent result..If you've done about all of that you're wanting to then this could be for you...it's a nice fantasy anyway huh?
Monday, November 12, 2007
And even though he's perhaps terribly thirsty, you can't make him drink. Why is that a true statement? how does it remind us of ourselves? If it is our goal that the horse should drink then the important lesson here is that you can't "make" the horse drink. Rather than succumb to our urgings and exhortations to drink, the horse prefers the smug satisfaction of knowing that despite our superior intelligence and opposable thumbs he has won! Many of us go thru life "noseless" without a nose, we decided that it would be better to cut it off than to appease the constant demands of an oxygen dependant body. My intent is to use this illustration of behavior by both horse and man as a lament of what I see as perhaps our biggest problem. Our pridefullness, our ego, our screwed up priorities and skewed perspectives. Our going thru life like the horse, so thirsty and yet unwilling to drink. Wearing blinders that prevent us not only from seeing side to side but ahead as well. We detect the stench of our dead lives and yet continue to embrace it. Life and relationships are what we make of them, circumstances are the excuses we use when we decide to quit. This is the good news, it's good because it means that we have the ability to choose, its bad, because it nullifies many peoples only means of getting people to pay any attention whatsoever to them. Like the horse, who after refusing to drink brags about his superiority while he is dying of thirst we humans rationalise our choices through the filter of our own dis-functon and choose to remain chained to the rotting corpse that we keep smelling. that rotting corpse is us.